[ultramagas]

Hey, I'm going through something similar. I had to quit an amazing job because my wife and I pursued a dream and moved to Europe (no remote).

I had always had an easy time getting a job before but this time it was different. Granted I knew it'd be tougher since for remote jobs, the world is the competition. But it was a summer of endless shitty timed hackerrank-style tests (virtual whiteboard hazing). I would tell my co-workers about them and they'd laugh in bewilderment at the questions that were asked in what should be a technical screener, and these are extremely smart and productive software guys that have started companies, written books, give conference talks. One funny question I got for a frontend React job: write a function that takes a sequence of bits that represent a negative-binary number (not a base-2 number that is negative, but a base-(-2) number) and return its negated value in base-2. For a frontend job. It was one of 4 questions to be answered in 90 minutes. gtfo.

A few companies would reply, most strung me along while -- I realize now -- they were keeping me as a backup(-backup) incase their "A-player" turned them down. Countless interviews, hours on takehome projects, it was tough. I learned to cut bait if the company was slow to move forward, had weeklong periods of no communication, etc.

I (just very recently) found it's easier to land small contract gigs because the barrier to entry seems to be lower, demonstrate value, and keep getting work from those guys after the initial project was done. It is different but so far I actually like the freedom that comes with contracting. I haven't been at it long enough to experience the downsides.

There's definitely not a shortage of talent. It's that every company thinks they need "A-players", when the vast, vast majority are doing a damn basic CRUD app.

Just wanted to say I hear you brother and share my story in some solidarity. You will find something, just keep plugging away. Each "failed" attempt makes you better no matter how many attempts it takes. Cliche of course but it is true. I am very lucky in that I don't face the mental demons you do, even then this job search hit me pretty hard. Please be proactive and take care of yourself, body and mind (body goes a long way toward mind also).