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Even based on such a short comment, you seem to have some serious problems with internalized racism. You clearly seem to think that being westernized is somehow better, and it's a "disappointment" that others have pride in themselves and their culture.

So the only reason that you feel "lucky" to speak Mandarin is so you can make "easy" money? Your purposefully don't associate with Asian people?

Don't "worry" about some stereotype or your "Asian-ness", but develop some god-damn pride in who you are.