[SHOwnsYou]

The way you talk sounds like you're putting a lot of pressure on yourself. If you do that, it will manifest with unhealthy ways - stimulants, breakdowns, etc.

My first year of undergrad was by far the hardest. Weed-out classes are a real thing. It will get easier after year 1.

Taking adderall a few times is hardly abuse, but taking it when you don't need it is definitely a bad habit to begin during university.