[mjlangiii]

I'm sure you've worked plenty of time thinking about this already so I feel dumb trying to supplement that at all, but I'd assume you're probably repressing some level of emotion just because the physical expression of anxiety isn't so much a learned behavior coming from your prefrontal cortex but more like a low level hind brain thing you have just by being human. Between survival instincts and social instincts we have very physically based "emotions" and playing the odds here, I'd wager you and others that comment, having similar experiences, that you developed this coping mechanism at a young age. Apologies if I'm reading too much into a simple comment saying you're misunderstood at times.

[dkarl]

I feel terrified, my body temperature goes up, I often sweat, and I have an overwhelming urge to censor my speech which tends to make me censor my thoughts as well. It's an exhausting emotional experience, and it feels and behaves just like fear, not like any other emotion, except when there's anger mixed in. The only difference is, I'm maintaining enough control of my face and voice and body to fool a lot of people. Probably not everyone.