[Albedoen]

I'll answer Q2 before Q1.

Q2. I've used ayahuasca 50+ times, mushrooms 15-ish times in full journeys & microdosing for 1 year, peyote, mapacho a few times. Iboga: 2 months of microdosing & a proper flood dose. I prefer 5-MeO-DMT because it is efficient, it is direct, fact acting & doesn't carry the discomfort of nausea etc like other psychedelics. 5-MeO-DMT is called the crown jewel of psychedelics and I fully agree. It is the only one proper to use for first timers (with the proper support) in a personal-development business context.

Q1. In all my journeys, I have never had a bad trip. I've had challenging journeys but no bad trips. Then I've experienced emotional upheaval during short periods of time, emotional flush as I call them. No DR/DP, HPPD or depression to report. I must say I've engaged with entheogens after a lot of self-work already and a lot of education in the nature of the universe. I ALWAYS approach entheogens with an attitude of humility & surrender.

[rocgf]

Thank you for your reply.

I am way less experienced than you are, and yet I can't help but feel that your experience is somewhat atypical. I never had a bad trip myself, but I can definitely see how one could happen. Given high doses and time, I'd say it's almost guaranteed. Also, HPPD seems to be correlated with the number of trips and definitely not as rare as some statistics might suggest. However, it's largely unresearched, so who knows? I'm not criticizing in any way, just saying you're one of the lucky ones, I'd guess.

If you will allow me one more question, I'd like to know how this has changed your perception about well... everything? It's a broad question, but I guess sort of aimed at your reason for existence, death and so on. In my case, experimenting with psychedelics both revealed the unavoidability of death, but also cured me from the fear of it. Overall, I'd say that's a win, but it definitely had its challenges. Because of those challenges, I avoid blindly recommending psychedelics to friends, the desire to confront such issues has to come from within.

[Albedoen]

How it changed me and my perception?

I profoundly KNOW (not believe) that I am the embodiment of the Infinite, I live my life in a game I have designed for myself, I create my own reality and everyone is another facet of Me, the Infinite. It doesn't make sense to choose less than Love or choose less than EXACTLY what my heart desires. I live my life as such. To the best of y ability, I walk my talk & serve as best as I can. Psychedelics are not for everyone, but I feel those who feel the calling are lucky bastards :-) It's such a beautiful world is you can sustain the intensity of inner transformation, but of you feel the calling, then this is what you are after.