[sethx]

I see you got a lot of great technical suggestions here. I am in no way able to comprehend what you must be going through mentally, but to tackle your anxiety, please consider meditation. If you have never done that before, there is an excellent 10 day course that can be followed, onsite, on a donation basis. If you're broke you don't have to pay. It's a 10 day silent retreat, which means you don't have to talk to anyone and can just focus on "showing up to do the work". https://www.dhamma.org/

[takecarefnd]

Can't agree more.