[sy7ar]

Agree with your points and I might give massaging a try. I've let go of so many things and pursuits since my condition started so I doubt it's anxiety and stress. It's been more than half a year since I need to work (fortunate to be on company's disability benefit for now). Right now I simply wish to stay alive/healthy and enjoy simple things in life. Hopefully my sleep keeps recovering to a point that I can work full time again. For several months, it was super scary that it was only going down hill.

> you are tired as hell, your brain is almost failing, you want to sleep, but you just can not.

I know exactly what you mean. I was like that for the whole winter. Fortunately this scenario's not happened for quite some time. I'm at least getting some amount of sleep everyday.

[unishark]

Have you tried sleep headphones and/or noise generation? Also does listening to guided meditation/relaxation recordings (as opposed to just following a practice you read) do anything to knock you out?

[sy7ar]

Right now falling asleep is usually not a problem. Waking up early and then again and again is the problem; plus not sleeping more than 5.5 hours. This is an example from my sleep diary: bedtime 11:39, and the subsequent wake up times are 1:50, 3:16, 4:42, 6:01, 6:35. I wrote a simple app to track them without having to look at a clock. I only know the result when I'm out of bed.