[mongo_lover]

As someone that has had one or two "deathbed" experiences, I can say two things struck me about them

1) I felt complete peace about dying. In fact, I had to reason myself towards wanting to live

2) I felt a level of clarity about what was important to me that I have never felt before (or since). I struggle to incorporate that into my life on an ongoing basis.

I think these experiences were a terrible gift. I would wish everyone experienced the clarity I had but I could not wish you had to go where I did to get it.

[scotty79]

When I wonder about my own death I'm always unsure whether I'll be afraid and sad about the fact that I won't see the future or just be so tired with how I feel that I'll just want to be done with it as soon as possible.

[mongo_lover]

The more imminent death seemed, none of that really came to mind. I only felt fear when death was a possibility but when it seemed death was certain, that fear went away. It was strange.

[DiggyJohnson]

Is is worth your time do describe that feeling of clarity? Have you ever been able to (re)capture it, even for a moment?

Is this a silly question? That's an interesting datum in itself.

[mongo_lover]

It's hard to describe. Best thing I can say is everything just fell away and only the truly important remained. I have never been able to feel that same way again but I try to remember what I felt was important. It is surprisingly hard.

[unphased]

Thanks for sharing a piece of how it felt. I'm curious what the circumstances around that were, if you don't mind.

[mongo_lover]

I had(!) an incurable type of cancer. There were complications during chemo.