[avenger123]

Perhaps spend as much time as you need in reflection. Either with yourself or with the help of a therapist. It seems you're on shore and looking out to sea to a ship that is out of reach to you but you feel you should be on but it's not possible for you to see how to get there. Once you are on that ship, you feel your life issues will be solved or you'll be in a much better place happiness wise.

Unfortunately, lots of money doesn't solve life problems most of the time. Especially the inner life problems.

Reflect on your life. What's missing? What's the gap? Focus on those things.

I assure you a bigger house, a nicer car or lots of money in your bank account doesn't make your inner life better. I'm making the assumption that you're financially doing OK already.

The hardest thing to do is for us to reflect on ourselves and ask the why questions. It's easy to focus on something else and make that the target.