[avenger123]

The first acceptance should be that making worthwhile change in your life will take time. So, I would consider taking this out of the consideration. Just assume that it will take you time.

The second consideration should be a reflection on your part. Do a simple thought experiment. Assume either outcome has happened already. Which one makes you feel good about your life more?

You are conflicted since you want a quicker solution to your situation and unfortunately for most of us that's just not possible. So take the quick part out of your thinking. Give both options equal time regardless of whether it's true or not. The second consideration then becomes effort and monetary cost. These you have to be brutally honest with yourself and consider how hard you are really going to work and how much you are willing to spend. In terms of positive outcomes, again assume both will happen. Life is strange. We change, things happen, shit happens, etc. So assume things all things considered both outcomes can happen.

Your thinking is muddled because you haven't set the foundations for how you want to think about this. I've given you some suggestions on how to do that.