[dalu]

Long story short Worked with PHP without Frameworks since 2001. Had top 1000 sites. Made 700 a day passively peak times. Drank the Kool aid of PHP Frameworks and spent 2 years with Symfony. Years later regretting that. It's the worst dependency he'll. Worse than old red hat. Switched to Go, AngularJS, Angular. All the Google crap. Went full independent frontend and backend. Never GraphQL because it's stupid like everything coming from Facebook. Go disappointed me with their holier than thou attitude. Having Rust for bring hyped despite being a step back from Go. Lately gotten into the Vue ecosystem. I love it. I loooove it. I love Svelte. I love it. Played with flutter. It's fun. Tried switching to Java/Spring boot but always landing at Go again. Last summer all my projects imploded. I'm now down to 10€/ month ad revenue. Aka I'm dead. I've been looking for a job as I live in Germany. They're all shit. Arrogant companies who don't want to pay you your worth in money and want you to work 5 jobs. I'm so full of hate of it all. The clueless recruiters, the Kool aid drinking managers, the students who think they know better while I was usually the one fixing projects those students never finished. I know what I'm doing. I'm using Go for 8 years now. I wrote my own backend generator. It's in v3 now. All I need to do is define my data models and generate, do some minor adjustments and I'm done. I didn't reinvent the wheel. I use keycloak for my auth needs. It doesn't matter if I build classic websites or modern api/frontend. I can't find a job where reading the job ad doesn't drive my blood pressure up. And if I find a good job ad, it's already taken (happened 2 times in 2 years). So yeah I like learning new things where it makes sense. I would love to have automated deployments. But git pull Go build over remote ssh is good enough. Or building locally pushing via bash script to prod. I get it when your larger you need different solutions. I like to go with the times when it makes sense. But I'm not falling for the docker crap especially k8s. It's made so you're being reliant on cloud providers like gce aws and all that vendorlocking overpriced CRAP. I've been coding since the age of 11. I've cracked games at 13 and wrote and linked cracktros. I made music but that career was a pipe dream literally. It was my 1st choice. Computers my 2nd. I was good at it but I didn't love it. I loved life. Now I've wasted years upon years in front of the computer screen. And I'm back to where I started. If you ask me I would just love a simple job driving across the countryside delivering things, not solving problems. Not sitting hours upon hours staring at a screen, living in my mind, in a fake reality.

Still I'm good at what I do. Go was a huge leap forward in experience. PHP, in hindsight was a toy for children. The PHP world is full of pseudo smart people aka not smart. Being exposed to C++ back in 2000 was mind altering. I'm not the smartest but I'm smarter than most in this field. I like to keep it simple.

So yeah shameless plug I'm looking for work. Remote only.

OP, you need to adapt. Or you don't, up to you. If you don't feel the need to there's mydriads of PHP jobs. But PHP is ill, mentally. It tried being Java with all the bad things it brings. Php is synonymous with everything wrong with the world. Wrong tool for the job. I don't know what to tell you.