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>The more content I discover, the tinier and irrelevant I feel.

This is called knowledge. This is a good thing, keep going.

>I go down a rabbit hole of brilliant relevations of one person after the other, and I come out tired and discouraged.

Compare yourself only with the person you were yesterday

Comparing yourself to others is completely fruitless, will generate desires, and will cause suffering for yourself.

When you are say 30 you might see someone driving the new Chevy Corvette C8. Such a beautiful car being driven by an old dude who is barely touching the accelerator. You desire to have a corvette as well, maybe something better? But you dont have it and cant afford it and you suffer. But did that old dude have a corvette at 30? Nope, he was looking at corvette c3 back in the day with astronauts driving it and had the same desires and suffering.

Instead you should plan, 'how do I get to the point where i can buy that Corvette C9 in some time. I'll have it decades earlier than that guy and I wont be blind and can use the throttle to its max.'

What does that plan look like? Maybe it means you need to save more or go learn Rust. I'd bet Rust will survive, you could go do that.

You have to figure out what the end point looks like; then reverse engineer. Go look at job postings, what are they asking for? Go get those things in the next year. Then you apply for the job. In the interview you explain this very process that brought you to them. You get hired and you are now on the way to getting that corvette. When preorders of the C9 open, you show up and have the cash.

Here's the clincher. Before you even get there, you'll find the interest in the C9 wanes. You saw a dude driving the F150 lightning and now you want that. You realize that these desires are the real problem. You learn to break the desires.