[michael-ax]

Sounds to me like you're obsoleting your self for the first time. It does not get easier the 2nd, 3rd, 4th or 5th time, but you'll perhaps see it getting easier.

As for your perceived lack of something, consider that some part of you is smarter than you know and gives you cognitive issues just so you don't go down a path meant for people that are somewhat less well rounded, less integrated, have narrower talents or whatever. I mean, your judgements on the industry are spot on.

Since people will generally only call you a genius while profiting from your work, think of these tests as selecting the most exploitable.