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OP listen to this.

And go read So Good They Can't Ignore You by Cal Newport. You'll see stories of people in situations very similar to you.

Source: I rebeled in my early 20s for a more meaningful life before I had enough career capital to spend and learned a lot of lessons the hard way. My saving grace was that I already had a degree and was demonstrably good (i.e. employable) at a couple of things.