[servytor]

You need to apologize in your head. You have to talk about how sorry you are in your head. If you are going through something, you have to apologize for it in your head. If you have trouble apologizing in your head, for whatever reason, just write down the apology on a piece of paper.

I apologize all the time out loud. For my whole life, I have almost never apologized in my head. I like apologizing out loud when I am wrong or have insulted, because I see it as a chance at righting a wrong. But until recently I have never apologized in my head. Not because I don't like doing it, but because of some sort of mental block that affects my ability to form an inner monologue.

An 'inner universe' empty of thought and apologies is a huge personal liability. Trust me.

Just google what I quoted and have some imagination.

[krageon]

Apologies are something you make to other people in an attempt to convince them of something (for example that you see what they see). For that to be relevant internally, you would need a dialogue there. Not a monologue.

[joeman1000]

Your first paragraph is scary.