[luhego]

There are multiple ways to try to stop this behavior. I will tell you the ways that didn't work for my parents. Turning off the internet, cutting the electricity off, hiding the PC or consoles, knocking the door at night asking if I am playing or studying. They annoyed me so much that I stopped playing for a while, got a job and moved out from my parents house at the first opportunity. Now, I continue to play as before but no longer talk to them. If that is the outcome the op friend is trying to accomplish then ok.

[riolu]

My parents took a more hands on approach of destroying my desktop that I paid for and built at 16, broke my bedroom door and subsequently splintered the frame so it couldn't be put back on, constantly disabling my phone service, taking my phone. I don't believe I am capable of making friends, my parents always chose my friends for me and we never had anything in common. The moment I moved out to university I built another machine and did nothing but play games resulting in failing multiple classes. While it was my fault, I did not learn moderation through constant repression. The only thing I got out of this experience is cPTSD, Prazosin, social isolation, panic attacks at footsteps, no identity since I never had the opportunity to understand myself or my emotions. I am however good at picking locks, manipulation, never showing emotion, weaponizing an arsenal of personalities, staying calm and diffusing stressful situations.

My relationship with my parents is fine, I am good at telling them exactly what they want to hear to avoid conflict. I have tried to be open to them numerous times, it only made things worse.

I've grown to enjoy being alone, no longer feel lonely most days. Sometimes I do try to make some semblance of a relationship through games or other activities outside of the computer, but my social skills are lacking not for lack of trying or improving. There are many things I try to change and improve about myself, many sleepless nights reading wikipedia and studies trying to figure out what exactly is wrong with me and what I can do to fix it. I've hit a dead end with BPD, I try not to let it discourage me. I have overcome self harming mostly but the urges are still there. I am very tired and am falling into misanthropy, though I try my best to be the change I would like to see.

I do not blame my parents, my decisions have been my own and I try to be informed. They are human and have made mistakes. It is unfortunate that those mistakes have caused extensive damage to my mental. The things I want most in life are simply unobtainable due to my broken perception of relationships and emotional dysregulation. It is unfair to burden another human with my existence, for what I need they could never hope to provide, though many have tried and walked away hurt, all my fault.

I doubt OP could possibly do worse than this, but the ramifications of such actions should not be taken without heavy consideration. I want to do my best for the next generation and hopefully die soon so no more could be asked of me.

[em-bee]

i am sorry for your experience. did you try to talk to a psychologist?

the thing that i'd like to stress is that i don't think any of this is your fault. on the surface it looks like it is, but blaming yourself is not helpful.

The things I want most in life are simply unobtainable due to my broken perception of relationships and emotional dysregulation

i can relate to that. it took me a long time to understand what i needed to get out of a relationship and what i could contribute, because my parents didn't show me.

please continue to try. don't give up. i don't know what can help you. try making connections online. they are more distant, but less potential for hurt. and maybe, if you can, try travelling. you will meet lots of people to try to connect to, but you are not forced to stick around. i don't know if that works for you, but i think it's worth for the experience.

[branon]

You can write, though, so there's that.

If you're into reading, I can recommend "No Longer Human" by Osamu Dazai. It won't cheer you up or anything but you might identify with the protagonist. As long as you're doing better than him, you're doing alright.

Hang in there, baby.

[millzlane]

But you got a Job and can take care of yourself. I'd say that is the goal over all. I should make sure you know I love you and make sure you're independent and can take care of yourself. But if I had ot only pick one. I'd pick the latter.