[andrewallbright]

My therapist says it's important to accept my personal story of how I came to be here. Sometimes that means grieving all the missed opportunities from the past. It's important to integrate the past into the present so you can confidently move into the future. Just make sure that you are a friend to yourself as you take stock of your past. YMMV.

Assuming you successfully did the hard work above, or have opted to skip it... Let's think about the future. Try to imagine where you want to be in 5 or 10 years. What does that look like? Is it an accomplishment? A style of living? A feeling? Freedom? Think however makes sense to you as we all have different sense of what we want. That's your end point that you'll try to target. Try to think of what would have to happen each year, each month, each week to get there. How can you do that sustainably? This is a type of thinking that may be helpful to you.

In my opinion it's good that you're auditing yourself like this. Maybe you don't really want to be doomscrolling your life away. But the hard question to answer is where do you want to turn your attention? What is important to you?

Hope some of this helps.