[drinker4321]

I would recommend getting professional help: find a counselor/therapist. It's not that they have any magic for you, but they can help you analyze your own behavior and feelings about it and give you a lot of guidance and personalized advice. They've seen it all! Look for "harm reduction".

I've been about 3 weeks without booze after about ~6 years of completely functional but pretty over the top drinking (I counted recently a sustained ~7 drinks every second night kind of thing for a month). I never realized how much it was affecting me: I'm now much more energetic, upbeat, and just feel better.

Many of us are completely functional yet at least borderline alcoholics, it's worth taking it seriously and thinking carefully about your relationship with alcohol!