[jplata]

I feel similar in a lot of ways: stayed too long at dead-end jobs early in career, avoided going to startups (risk) or faang (scared?) for too long, failed to have a side-project of my own 'take-off' into something really substantial.

So I clearly have no silver-bullet advice, but I say 20 failures sounds like a good start :).

There are very likely nuggets you've learned within these roles and projects that you may not even realize, but will naturally come forth and be applied in a future project. Just keep moving.