[alchemyromcom]

I'm 40 right now and just started my first real career-type job this year. At 39 I was still a co-op student. It's honestly fine. The world is changing and it's way more common for "adult learners" to be part of the co-op, intern, and new hire cohorts. Most of the older ones are admittedly in their 30s, but I knew a guy that was starting over in his 50s and it was fine.

That's not to say getting a career will stop you from having miserable thoughts. I'm not sure why it's the case, but some people are just more miserable than others. I fantasized deeply about blowing my brains out all morning, for example, just because I had double-booked two clients in the morning and didn't know how I was going to handle it--luckily one of them cancelled, so I'll live to see another day.

In other words, a career might not solve all your problems. Many people here have suggested therapy, and though I don't personally believe in therapy as I think it's a way to enforce compliance to an increasingly dysfunctional society, it's probably the right advice for both you and also me.

Therapy aside, I would like to give you advice about how to salvage your resume after more than a decade out of the workforce.

The key to this is community colleges that have work placements. Here in Canada, those are called co-ops and they are a really good deal. If you do everything right, and get all the bursaries available, you'll likely make a small profit on your college career, rather than lose money--but that's in Canada, and it could be different in other countries.

The great thing about co-ops is that they put applicable experience on your resume where you had none before(1). And if you need more, many community colleges also have additional year-long certificates co-ops (in Canada they are called graduate certificates) that can give you even more applicable work experience.

After just two years and 3 co-ops, all my NEETING days had finally disappeared and my resume now looks stacked.

Something that is important, however, is you pick something that actually has jobs. That narrows down your choices quite a bit, and it's mostly going to be IT related, but it could also be trade related, like a line man or even getting your CDL (commercial truck drivers license).

I would even suggest not going into IT, if your battling with your own mind, as it requires a lot of mental fortitude to consider systems and code and humans not doing what you thought they would do--that's a big trigger for the miserable among us, I suspect.

I would actually suggest lineman instead. Think of the freedom and the fresh air and the lack of clients. It's not such a bad future, once you dig into it. And please don't do anything stupid. There's still lots of life to live.

1--It's also a different hiring process than finding a regular job, and it's understood that you don't yet have experience when you talk with potential employers.