[thunderrabbit]

> severe procrastination and a masterful ability to lie to myself.

This 12 step program helped me in my 50s.

https://underearnersanonymous.org

> Underearners Anonymous® is a Twelve Step Fellowship of people who have come together to help themselves and one another recover from underearning.

> Underearning is many things, not all of which are about money. While the most visible consequence is the inability to provide for one’s needs, including future needs, underearning is also about the inability to fully acknowledge and express our capabilities and competencies. It is about underachieving, or under-being, no matter how much money we make.