[bergerjac]

My childhood conditioning was also something which recently unraveled for me.

The first time I had a heart-to-heart with my father, the center of my chest felt viscerally tender.

Mother stole a car and sold it to pay for a cocaine addiction. Father was such a workaholic that he simply marked her behaviors as "strange"... like her taking phone calls into a closet.

After the divorce my father had custody and remarried to continue his absence. (Normally left before I awoke, and I went to bed before he returned. He was even normally late for family dinners on holidays. When he was home, he was sleeping or watching TV)

Sometimes stepmother would return from work and vomit anger onto me and my stepsister. (Only about 2 years ago I realized it was Verbal Abuse)

Re-encoding memories was crucial for my awareness, and mental-emotional progress.

It's challenging at first, but after processing a few traumas, now when a deeper layer surfaces, I know I can immediately bring it to a therapeutic resolution.

"It's never too late to have a happy childhood."