[iwant2endmyself]

That's what I am looking for, some chemicals or experimental procedures or whatever it takes.

Keeping aside goals, my problems have significantly hindered my ability to function normally.

[momirlan]

what you are saying applies to everybody. if I start talking about my problems and how i failed to become rich we'll spend a lot of quality time together. trust me, we're all just winging it, most of us. you need to get out of your brain.