[dangerface]

> I got into the big leagues.

You sure about that? I know thats what every one says but lets face it, being a dev at FAANG is like being a chef at McDonald's. It sounds like you are taking it seriously and really trying to make your lifes best work, I bet your boss hates you and wishes you would just make the big mac as instructed.

Your mindset is trigger by your environment, change your environment the mindset will change without any effort. Trying to change your mindset in an enviornment that triggers a complacent mindset will drive you mad please don't try.

Get a job where your enthusiasim is appreciated and encouraged, stop trying to make soufflé at McDonald's.