[drycobbler]

> I don't use hard drugs

Do you use cannabis? Your writing suggests to me (not a medical health professional but a family member to a person with mental health struggles) that you might be experiencing thought disorder, which is a sign of psychosis. In some people, cannabis use (including after a long period of use with no apparent negative effects) can cause substance abuse psychosis. Thought disorder can also be a sign of other non-drug-related psychotic spectrum disorders, like bipolar disorder, schizoaffective disorder, and schizophrenia.

If you use soft drugs, consider taking a prolonged abstinence to see if your functioning improves.

Regardless of substance use, consider talking to a mental health professional. In Pennsylvania, the National Alliance on Mental Illness has a helpline for people undergoing mental health crises:

1-888-264-7972

[clubm8]

I'm no longer willing to, since I was harassed repeatedly when I did exactly as you describe.

I'm not going to pay to turn my phone on when I'm preparing for emigration.

It's been FOUR years. I can show you photos of my wounds, and photos of the laptop that was smashed. This is an economic issue, not a psychological issue.

Lack of reoccuring income, paired with years of only one job offer at a time after interviews masquarading as free consulting sessions.

What I need is a job, and a place to spend money from my job on rent.

(Right now, the only "drug" I'm using is caffeine... in the past, a small bit, then cannabis in the evening helped, but... Mike Folmer's people harassed me. You know who that is, if you're from PA.)

Are you willing to help with these things, now that I've explained how I tried the typical options?

[drycobbler]

It appears you are in the Bay. You may have previously been diagnosed with anxiety and CPTSD and treated for those. It’s common for people with those diagnosis to later be diagnosed with something else.

You appear to be suffering from a psychosis. California had a new law that can get you help. Call the local mental line and say you are unable to provide for your own well-being due to persecutory delusions and disordered thinking. Ask to be admitted to an inpatient program, where the doctor can give you an antipsychotic medicine. Your life will totally change for the better.

You want to do good for society, which is commendable. You can’t help others unless you help yourself first. Please get help.

[beebmam]

I don't believe you that you can't get a job, sorry. This is the best job market in my lifetime for laborers. My roommate, who hasn't worked in 10 years, got the very first job she applied for, no questions asked, $17/hour with tips, prepping food at a restaurant.

There are an enormous number of job openings like this.