[drycobbler]

It appears you are in the Bay. You may have previously been diagnosed with anxiety and CPTSD and treated for those. It’s common for people with those diagnosis to later be diagnosed with something else.

You appear to be suffering from a psychosis. California had a new law that can get you help. Call the local mental line and say you are unable to provide for your own well-being due to persecutory delusions and disordered thinking. Ask to be admitted to an inpatient program, where the doctor can give you an antipsychotic medicine. Your life will totally change for the better.

You want to do good for society, which is commendable. You can’t help others unless you help yourself first. Please get help.