[manapause]

Recovery from addiction became so much more meaningful when you realize that failing at recovery is part of the process.

I was trying to keep a death grip on sobriety. The clenching and clawing while putting up appearances... life brings us sadness. sometimes at times of desperation, the only thing I have left is my reaction.

When I look back on my mistakes, it all feels insane; the pathology of feedback loop neurosis had me chasing tornados with a butterfly net. What would catching it do for me?

Recognize the stillness where you are _right now_ my friend, and we can sit here for awhile and watch those clouds join the others as they roll over the horizon.

[KingJulian]

This struck a chord with me. If you don't mind, could you please explain more about how you changed your mindset? It seems like you're talking about letting go as opposed to maintaining tight control.