[dazamarquez]

Find a new job as soon as possible. Even if the promise of no more layoffs is true, when the atmosphere affects your ability to perform, you gain nothing by staying there. Your mental health should be top priority.

Also, if anxiety causes you to underperform, if/when there'll be a new round of layoffs, you might be on the line anyway.

[082349872349872]

Good advice I got from my VC: "whenever you find yourself spending 20 minutes in the shower in the morning, it's time to circulate your CV".

PS. that's not a normal tradeoff of being in a startup. BigCos have layoffs. Things being FUBAR because the startup grows too quickly are the normal tradeoffs.

[cableshaft]

...but a twenty minute shower can be very nice and pleasant. I don't do them all the time but sometimes I choose to stay in just because I'm enjoying it. I think I did one earlier this week, and I have no issues and almost zero stress with my job right now.

I get the sentiment though. I remember a previous job I hated that I got in trouble if I arrived late, so I'd get there pretty early to make sure I wasn't late, and would sit in the car in the parking lot waiting (and dreading) the clock getting to 8:00am, when I was expected to be there. I never left the car early to go in and say hi to people, I wanted to be inside that building as little as possible.