[hideo]

Assuming you're asking in good faith

Based on this and your last couple of posts, I can sense you are struggling. Please don't rely on the advice of strangers (mine included).

Some things I would suggest

1. Find someone in real life that you would like to emulate. See if you can talk to them about being mentored or coached regularly.

2. Consult a qualified medical mental-health professional. This is easier said than done. But if you can find the right person it's completely worth the few weeks of effort it would take

3. Consider that your value system might not necessarily be the same as the value systems of the authors of the projects that get on HN front page, or get commented up.

4. We live in increasingly a winner-take-all society. That's not a judgment, it's a matter of fact. The stuff that gets upvoted here gets upvoted more. That means you may be seeing something that's not reflective of the general population

I know this is cliched but be kind to yourself.

PS: If you're LARPing, you have a flair for writing.

[cypherofreal1ty]

Since we live in a winner-take-all society, one has to morph to be able to thrive in such an environment and i want to. i am from a place where the killer instinct is a necessity and the price of failure is too high (believe me, i know it very well). i have no choice but to become the type-A finance/tech millionaire to ever hope to become one.

> If you're LARPing, you have a flair for writing.

Not larping sadly, this is real. Thank you, i do not know if you are being kind with the compliment but either way, even having flair for writing is useless in the age of LLMs haha.