[overthemoon]

I just started medication for ADHD and it's helped a lot of things, so. There's that. I find that on top of being distracted less (not zero, it's not magic) I have more of a desire to do other stuff, like learn and read and play with my son and have good conversations with people I love. I find I'm more in control of my emotions, especially the critical ones, and my tendency to obsess and ruminate is reduced.

Based solely on this paragraph, you sound like me, so I'm going to take a shot and tell you what I'd tell my 24 year old self: no amount of browbeating yourself is going to fix this. Discipline takes work, yes, but it also takes a mind able to do the work. See a therapist, and/or a doctor. Lay all this stuff out and see what they say. After that, start small. But not just small--something you'd think you would enjoy. Don't force yourself to eat your vegetables at this stage. Something that lands in the middle of fun and enriching, which can produce a skill or a product you will eventually be proud of, but which in the meantime you like doing.

Take heart. This is doable. I've been there, it sucks, and there's a way out.

[cypherofreal1ty]

How long did it take for the meds to work? I have to different doses for a month each but did not see any effect, partly because i would sometimes not take the med on time.