[fylham]

Two paths to the relaxed lifestyle: 1) only work about as much as needed and keep a low-key, relaxed lifestyle; 2) work crazy hard for 15-20 years and then if everything works out perfectly, slow down and keep a low-key, relaxed lifestyle. All of my life experience suggests that option two is often a trap that keeps one away from relaxation.

Also, sounds like you could benefit from an existential psychotherapist, if you could find one.

Kind of random movie suggestion, but this all makes me think of the lovely movie I Heart Huckabees.

[cypherofreal1ty]

I want to work hard, but i am not even able to do the bare minimum work that is needed. Second, i want to work in such a way that i derive enough value (money) and not still be at the mercy of inflation and the various financial "Traps". So, two obstacles i do not know how to cross.