[andycowley]

One of my particular adhd symptoms is Oppositional Defiant Disorder https://www.additudemag.com/oppositional-defiant-disorder-in...

In short, if I get to decide when to do something, that's great. If someone asks me to do it, or worse _tells_ me, this kicks in and it takes a huge effort of will to overcome my opposition to it. I've noticed this is also true of 'systems' like calendars.

If you then combine this with my impaired executive function, and difficulty I task switching (to more on the list of symptoms), you get a cocktail of both anxiety and oppositional thought, which results in me doing nothing and internalising the berating that every authority figure in my life gave me because I'm lazy, rather than having a neurodevelopmental disorder.

[reddit_clone]

Jeez. Never heard of this one until today. But I immediately recognize this in my behaviour.

I am beginning to think ADHD is like a deck of cards. You are given ~10 random cards as symptoms! There are so many to choose from!

[andycowley]

Yeah. When you start to really research it you realise it isn't a single disorder, it's a collection of symptoms and behaviours, and everyone's collection is different.