[moth-fuzz]

I do not have an internal monologue, unless I intend to. I also frequently don’t even have thoughts unless I intend to, but that I’ll admit comes from several years of meditation. When I tell people I’m not thinking about anything, or that I even have the ability to not think about anything, they act shocked and confused. When I say “hold on, I have to translate my thought into English first,” they’re usually accommodating but I can tell from the looks I get that that’s not something everybody does.

It does however put into perspective a number of arguments I have day to day and online, and the simple fact that most of them are over semantics, definitions, miscommunications, and misunderstandings. I frequently wonder what it would be like to have an argument with someone where you both perfectly understand each other, and are just debating the merits of your ideas and not just how they’re presented.

I feel like a lot of people in the world equivocate language with meaning itself, with no abstraction behind the words and letters. That’s why sometimes if you tell someone they’re using a word wrong they’ll take it personally, as if you told them their very being was wrong. Well, if the externalized word is the only avenue you have for internal understanding, how can it be any other way?