[bleakenthusiasm]

I'm one of those low experience people currently accepting a job that wants you to do so 6 different jobs at a time. I'd love to be at a company that gives me one job and lets me get good at it, but somehow I can't find it. Instead I ended up in this position where I'm now a "Senior Specialist" who is neither senior (3 years of meaningful experience) nor a specialist (my tasks range from ops work all the way to strategic planning for the next 4 years across 3 different "specialist" topics).

I dream of a job where I can be a specialist, actually learn what I'm working with and focus on one thing for an entire day. But no, I'm a one-person show (in a team with another "specialist" who singelhandedly manages our entire IAM-structure from user management to integration to strategic planning) and all I can do is try to patch things up with my ideas of how things probably should work and applying more duct tape and prayers.

I recently mentioned that I really don't feel like specialist is the role I'm working here and I was asked why I feel the need to have a bigger role. I don't "need" it. I AM not a specialist. Never have been and with his job never will be. Also I wonder why the role of director for my team is still vacant after half a year. It's a mystery. It must look like such a good opportunity.