[ehPReth]

I have exactly one IRL friend that cares about my technology stuff, but he lives far away and we don't see each other in person too often. My ex tolerates me talking about it a little bit before he tells me to shut up, but that's it. It kind of sucks. I've just re-internalized to that nothing I do really matters, and therefore neither do I.

[malfist]

I assume nobody reads my blog, at most a couple people check out the pretty pictures but that's about it.

My opinion on blogging is do it for yourself, not to achieve something. That way it doesn't feel like wasted effort when nobody reads it and it can still be fun or cathartic to write.

[CoastalCoder]

Sorry, existential dread sucks.

Hope you find some more things that bring joy.

(I know platitudes are grating, but I thought you might want to know someone is rooting for you.)

[criddell]

> nothing I do really matters

That’s not necessarily negative. I’ll sometimes say that to myself when I’m feeling down as a way of freeing myself from whatever thoughts are feeling too heavy. I’m not really into stoicism, but I think it’s what memento mori is getting at.

[tempfile]

oh man, this is sad to read. I'm sorry.