[debacle]

You want to be a performer. Corporate work is performative, but it's not for performers.

Startups are nice because the environment you are describing quickly leads to a failed startup. I've identified recently that that's a preference of mine. The need for survival does wonderful things to organizational alignment.

You are very smart, you appear driven. You either need to piss your drive away, or find a role where you can perform to the degree that you desire.

[thawawaycold]

Thank you for your compliments; I don't really think myself as either, especially not particularly smart, anyhow I think you really hit the nail on the head with your last point - I should maybe just accept the situation and forget about being strongly driven during the day job, maybe reserving that desire to perform better for my own projects, when I'll be able to get the time to do so.

Finding another role to perform is, I fear, a bit risky in this situation as the possibility of quickly getting in a worse state of burnout would be much higher...