[emanuer]

Well, you seem crazy enough to, possibly, find some sort of enjoyment from this book: The Romance of Reality by Bobby Azarian The author explores an philosophical framework to explain the universe through the lens of entropy. I loved it.

Also, it is my firm believe that in the moment you have emergence at play in any shape or form, simulation is the only viable path for in depth research. In my mind any form of neural network is a deterministic chaotic system[1]. If this would be true, simulation is the way how you test and discover truths. So I am a big fan of your intent to start programming.

Another book which your text reminded me of was Scale by Geoffrey West. Again not something pertinent to your effort of Modeling Consciousness, but it informed and delighted me in my attempts to make sense of reality.

[1] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=svV1MsUdInE