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>embarassed

Like I once managed not to be triggered by ex-VC aebtebeten's routine dismissal of the following thesis the pieces of which I then had to shovel back into the incubator: expert embarassment is a seriously under-investigated vehicle that can't be faked in front of hiring committees (/elite managers/apple-ICs-who-cant-help-but-be-promoted-into-???)..

schlep-tolerance (all sorts of tolerance, sprezzatura, even) can be faked (whether until made or not) these days..

Embarassment.. it's only slightly better than self-deprecatory humor (in that the embarassed party explicitly confesses to (not merely) incomplete sentience, but also inexplicable emotional sequelae etc etc)

Now, who's going to devote decades to perfecting performative embarassment? Only someone you must hire at any cost (?) like.. a Soham Parekh who can explain the meta of what he's doing so you'd pay him to continue the shtick

To the guy out there in the arena: sorry! My anti-anhedonia model needs fine-tuning. It's a lifelong slog..

As it is, I'm embarrassed that this stuff doesn't attract upvotes..