I really enjoyed the book Mathematica by David Bessis, who writes about his creative process as a mathematician. He makes a case that formal math is usually the last step to refine/optimize an idea, not the starting point as is often assumed. His point is to push against the cultural idea that math == symbols. Sounds similar to some of what you're describing.
whilenot-dev|3 months ago
Every single YouTube video from tom7[0] or 3blue1brown[1] do way more on transmitting the fascinations of mathematics.
[0]: https://www.youtube.com/@tom7
[1]: https://www.youtube.com/@3blue1brown
krikou|3 months ago
I could relate how he described the mathematical experience with what I feel is happening in my head/brain when I do programming.
thenobsta|3 months ago