[anuramat]

for me, medication was closer to therapy than what I imagined (magic chemical that makes depression disappear) -- a drug changing my thought process (long term and on a deep level, unlike recreational drugs) helped me see myself as something malleable, instead of the idea of somewhat rigid "true self" I had before; from there it was much easier to start doing the DIY equivalent of CBT, as I stopped considering some of the feelings/ideas to be somehow inherent to my personality