[anuramat]

Are you taking something for ADHD?

I think I had a somewhat similar experience: before antidepressants, I was practically non-verbal; later, I had the typical brain fog/emotional blunting -- still unable to communicate with the therapist; after adjusting to meds, by the time that I can put the problem into a coherent sentence, I can usually fix it anyway, so what is the therapist for? Is it really just rubber duck debugging, where the duck has a medical degree?

One thing I wasn't able to figure out was ADHD -- I didn't really believe I had it, as my psychiatrist was sure it's not the problem -- everything was explained with depression/anxiety/geniune lack of motivation. Now that I finally have a prescription for stims, seems like it was the other way around: most of the time I would have a feedback loop where my typical fuckups would trigger a downward spiral, and it's almost not a thing anymore; being able to get shit done is just generally such a pleasant experience!

TLDR My depression also wasn't a "true depression" in a sense, but you still need to fix some underlying issue, which is much easier when your thoughts are not all "I'm a failure" shaped