[someothherguyy]

> I could cry with joy because I could finally understand emotionally why people like the Christmas season.

SSRIs are known to induce a

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mixed_affective_state

I seriously messed up my life early on by not being able to recognize the difference between being happy and manic.

One of those manic symptoms was often feeling like crying out of joy, and another was feeling way more cognitively capable that I was.