[mustardhamsters]

I don't think wanting to stay permanently single makes you broken. I also don't think that you are the sole decider of what makes you a "good" boyfriend or if you need to be a "dramatically better person" to get there.

Do what makes you comfortable and what you think will make you happy and fulfilled in ten, twenty or thirty years. I felt this post made a strong case for thinking of relationships as long-term investments and although it's hard to think on that scale, that may help you with your decision of how to live your life.