[jackhammer]

Most of the advise here seems to be along the lines of: "I was rejected from Google too, don't take it too personal". This post got a lot of upvotes, because this is an experience many people can relate to.

I read your previous post at: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=8185085 and based on that I wanted to give you hopefully a little bit more personal advise. That said, I don't know much about you and personal situation, so I might be completely wrong.

Based on what you wrote, it seems like you had a setback in your life. After that you fixated all your efforts on your job interviews at Google and Amazon. When that failed, you fell into a hole.

I think, you need to find a different focus. I can't really tell you what it is, because I don't know enough about you.

What can help is to exercise and meditate every day. There is no such thing as bad mediation. Maybe talk with a psychologist, counselor or monk (I understand that you are in Thailand). It might help to view it in term of Buddhism: attachment, craving and letting go.

[annythesillicat]

This takes my breathe away. I'm pretty much like what you're saying. I’m lost and need to focus on different thing. I know it is bad when I think like I'm from poor family and I carry responsibility everywhere I go. I felt like I am an underdog until I got to interview with these top companies. I think I expected myself to get the job because I want to feel like ''yay!, I made it''. I’m still pretty sure that I want to work with one of these companies, surround with smart people where I can learn together with them and be a better person. See how far I can go. Because of the rough road of life I’m falling in. I learn how to let go. I love reading Dhamma, Persian poetry, philosophy and psychology. I mediate almost everyday. Go to gym/swim/ yoga. I’ve been living a happy life by using this stuff as a life manual. Just this time I don’t know what happen. I totally have no idea what I’m talking about. Haha. Thank you very much for your advice. I could see how I can adjust my craziness from your perspective :)

[jackhammer]

I am glad you found it helpful. Good luck.